just to be fair...

i don't like.

ughh :(

so, i am so completely frustrated right now. you know those times in life where you just want to sit back and ask yourself why? well this is one of those times. i have never understood why people do the things that they do. perhaps that is why i am taking a psychology class, to understand the way people operate and their reasoning behind things. i am quite the opinionated person but i am also extremely caring and understanding. i'm not afraid to admit that i am wrong but when i should never have to feel such disrespect from a person. it's hard for me to get angry without feeling guilty. if i yell, or get yelled at, i feel like all i can do is cry. i hate when people are mad at me and i hate being mad at people. i like a drama filled life and i do not go searching for it. i like laughter, smiles, hugs and sunshine and i don't know why people burden me with their rain clouds. i feel i have failed sometimes when i do not get the appreciation for the things i do. there is nothing more hurtful that someone you love and care about making you feel useless. i wish i could understand why people say the things they do, when they know they will regret the words they say. i wish people could take a step back and think through their words before they throw them onto someone else. apologies do not solve everything, the words stick with you. i try to do my best and be the best for the people i love. i do not go out of my way to be someone i am not, and i wish people would just accept the person i am. i am who i want to be. i don't need a label, i don't need fancy clothes, i just want to be happy. and i wish people would not take life so seriously and just be happy with me. God gave us one life, one life to live happy or sad. it's each individuals choice, but why not live it happy. why not live each day like tomorrow will never come. don't hurt people with your words. don't be greedy. don't be angry. don't be selfish. don't be hurtful. just don't. live like there is no tomorrow!

the love of my life <3

michael justin kerr. we have been together now for three years and he is everything i could ever want. some of you may know him for some of the stupid things he has done, but we have both done stupid things. but, we have both grown together and have become so stong and in love with everything about each other. we have been down a rough road to get where we are now but i would never change a thing. it difinitely has not been easy, but is love ever easy? everything that people go though happens for a reason and i strongly believe this. he and i are currently working on finding an apartment and it is such a wonderful and fun experience. we are getting the opportunity to know each other better (if that's possible) and to prepare for a life together. all my dreams have come true because of this boy and without him i feel like a lot would never be possible. he has always been my knight and shining armour and has done the best that he can for us. he is the most caring boy and he does everything to make me smile. i could never imagine life without him and writing this blog is only making me miss his cute face :) i love him with all my heart soul and there is never a moment that i take our love for granted or forget the struggle we have been through to get where we are now. the best and worst times of my life have been with him and i don't regret one moment.

my very first blog :)

my very first blog and i really have no idea what to say. my bestest friend is sitting next to me, so that made the topic a little easier. her name is darci anne luce. she is also in the english class that i am posting this blog for :) she is pretty much one of the most amazing people alive! her and i are so completely similar it's ridiculous! we can always find fun things to do on walks down main street or long car rides to la. we once wrote a list of our commonalities and lets just say it wasn't exactly earth friendly. we used enormous amounts of paper from the large list but it was so fun. making fun of dancing girls with back braces, chasing drunk old men at bars, our diets that never work, being thugs on disneyland rides, eating chips and salsa with only the juice, are are just a few of our memories. she is super cute, has such a fun attitude, and has a beautiful smile. not to mention HEY BOYS HEY!!! SHE IS SINGLE!!! :)) she is always there for me and even though we tend to disagree on some things we can never stay mad at each other. we both have strong personalities, so sometimes we get into little arguments but we always look past those. i love her so much and i just wanted our class, and the world, to know how wonderful she is!!! :))