ughh :(

so, i am so completely frustrated right now. you know those times in life where you just want to sit back and ask yourself why? well this is one of those times. i have never understood why people do the things that they do. perhaps that is why i am taking a psychology class, to understand the way people operate and their reasoning behind things. i am quite the opinionated person but i am also extremely caring and understanding. i'm not afraid to admit that i am wrong but when i should never have to feel such disrespect from a person. it's hard for me to get angry without feeling guilty. if i yell, or get yelled at, i feel like all i can do is cry. i hate when people are mad at me and i hate being mad at people. i like a drama filled life and i do not go searching for it. i like laughter, smiles, hugs and sunshine and i don't know why people burden me with their rain clouds. i feel i have failed sometimes when i do not get the appreciation for the things i do. there is nothing more hurtful that someone you love and care about making you feel useless. i wish i could understand why people say the things they do, when they know they will regret the words they say. i wish people could take a step back and think through their words before they throw them onto someone else. apologies do not solve everything, the words stick with you. i try to do my best and be the best for the people i love. i do not go out of my way to be someone i am not, and i wish people would just accept the person i am. i am who i want to be. i don't need a label, i don't need fancy clothes, i just want to be happy. and i wish people would not take life so seriously and just be happy with me. God gave us one life, one life to live happy or sad. it's each individuals choice, but why not live it happy. why not live each day like tomorrow will never come. don't hurt people with your words. don't be greedy. don't be angry. don't be selfish. don't be hurtful. just don't. live like there is no tomorrow!